Thoughts Blog 1

I feel like a lot of people are like this, especially females but I’m not good at using my words and when I started my blog the whole point was because I loved writing and creating. I write a lot; I type a lot and it helps me to be more in touch. I want to start editing and publishing what I write about daily on my blog. I know for a fact a lot of the time I am not the only one feeling overwhelmed, underwhelmed, or just lost in general. By publishing my thoughts, I hope to bring a little bit of perspective to my readers and almost a breath of fresh air helping others realize there's a community out there for you and no one is alone. Lately I have been feeling very alone and lost and scared but there are things I can do about that. I am making a daily effort to become the best version of myself, and I want to share that with my readers and the beautiful community that I have on this blog. I don't want these published “thought” blogs to be super formal, I want them to be casual like I am having a conversation with my readers.

I feel like lately I am evolving a lot. For the last few months, I have realized that something needs to change. I spend a lot more time alone and without people I used to be so close to. Part of it is my job and the fact that I almost don't have time for other things which isn’t super healthy and a whole different topic but right now I am trying to figure out how to go about life in a way that is healthy for me. My therapist told me something that really made me think about just how fast life moves. As I was in a session with her, she was basically explaining that I’m feeling a sense of overwhelming and drowning because of all the change that has gone on in my life the last few years that is major and I haven't had time or mentally capacity to accept it. I wonder why life moves so fast sometimes and then I try to remind myself that it is our choice. Life moves fast but that's how we think, we need to understand and realize that we make those decisions. We can also make the decision to slow our life down, not take everything so seriously because at the end of the day no one makes it out of life alive. To stop comparing ourselves to others and accept us for how beautiful we are. I know this is so hard sometimes speaking from someone who has severe anxiety; however, we need to remind ourselves. Going through huge major changes in our life, specifically ones that change our routine can affect us so much. As humans in general we don’t like change especially when it's all at once. Being able to sit with yourself and look at your life and make choices and realize things about it is so important. I wonder why humans have such a hard time coming to terms with aspects of our lives that we struggle with.

Anyways, just some thoughts that I want to get back in publishing, super informal and a fast read. Just to let people know that they are never alone and honestly more for myself to come and reflect one day on what and how I was feeling.